this is a repost from two years ago. im posting it again as a way to honor my wonderful mother. its how i still feel and i cant say it better this year than i did then. im wishing for all my friends who are moms a funtastic and happy mothers day!
dear mom
i miss you soooo much. when you died my heart got all crumbled and tied up in a tight ball and i couldnt take in even a little breath of air. all my insides got filled up with sad and i made so much tears i could have got drown in them. but little by little the crumble got less cause of remembering all the good stuff about you. it was like the hurting got shrunk up just like that time i put that pretty red turtle neck sweater you knitted for me in the washer and dryer and it got shrunk up so small that it looked like it could fit a for real turtle. ha ha. now theres so much things that could make me think about you with happy thoughts just like last night when i opened the deck door to go and feed the critters and i got a big nose full of some really pretty smelling bushes. i dont know what that bush was but it got me thinking of you cause of how you loved flowers and had that really pretty flower garden. it gave me a smile and a really nice memory. that kind of stuff happens lots of times cause now i could let it and before i couldnt cause of so much hurt being in the way. i think youll be happy that the hurt got shrunk cause you couldnt want me to be so sad for the rest of my whole life. i talk to you lots and i know you could hear me and i hear you in my heart even if you cant say stuff back out loud. some day im gonna get to be with you and im real happy for that. but right now cause im just right here still on the earth im gonna keep on being just me and do all the good stuff you taught me how to do. oh and you could need to know i dont ever forget to brush my teeth at night and i always talk to god before i get off to sleep. you could be real proud of me and my brothers and my sister cause were taking real good care of each other just like you taught us and just like you could want us to do. i love you more than a zillion of your apple pies and that’s a real lot cause you know how much i loved those yummy pies. happy mothers day in heaven mom!
…love and hugs from your son lenny
I'm glad you reposted this, Lenny, 'cause I'm new here and didn't see it before and it's one of the most moving, heartfelt tributes I've ever read.
ReplyDeleteYou're a wonderful writer, and even more, a wonderful son.
Oh Lenny! You've got me crying!!!!! I hope our Moms are wearing pretty dresses and have their favorite flowers pinned to them. My mom liked carnations.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure your mom is very happy with how you're growing and learning and touching so many people with your blog. I bet she's just beaming with pride! Happy Mother's Day to your Mom and mine!
Take care of you and it's good to see you again :)
Oh Lenny! I know your Mom is so proud of you and your whole family. She did a great job raising all six of you. :) She taught you how to be brave, how to be kind, how to be respectful of each other and of everyone you encounter, and how to stick together through thick and thin. I'm so proud to be your friend! ((HUG HUGS from your blom))
ReplyDeleteOh Lenny. I'm so glad you reposted this, too. I know your mom will be smiling down on you from heaven. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteHi, Lenny. Now I'm crying. You are a wonderful young man and I know that your mom is looking down on you from heaven, showering you with her love. Always stay special.
ReplyDelete(((HUGS))) from a friend.
Lenny, you are a truly special person and your mom was lucky to have you as her son.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a special person, Lenny and your mom was lucky to have you. I know she hears you and sends love to you every day.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, Lenny. Just beautiful. I know your mom is very proud of you and watching over you. I hope you have a beautiful day today and lots of good memories.
ReplyDeleteThat is really sweet, Lenny. Sorry mom is no longer here with you, but I bet she's really proud of you!
ReplyDeleteLenny, this is a beautiful letter. You've moved me to tears.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you, sweet one :)
ReplyDeleteAnd this, my friend, is the post that made me fall in love with you last year. You are so strong and brave and your Mom is SO proud of you right now.
ReplyDeletexoxoxo times infinity.
Perfect, Lenny. She'll be touched .. as I am. She sounds like a lovely lady - and I hope she knows what a great job she's done raising such a terrific kid. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteWow, Lenny, that is really touching! Your mom taught you to be a wonderful, caring person. I didn't know about you a year ago, so I'm really glad you reposted this. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteSomewhere in the universe your Mom still loves you and is so proud of you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteOh Lenny! The mom in me wants to hug you so tight! I know your mom is bursting with pride over all the wonderful things you and your brothers and sisters do for each other and for the rest of the world. I don't know if you realize how much you inspire other people. You inspired me today to be a better mom, because I know my boys are counting on me. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteLenny, I'm so thankful you reposted this. I was new to blogging at this time last years so I never saw it. It's beautiful. You're mom is there with you, right in the center of your chest. Always and forever. She lives on through you and your siblings. I ditto what Lydia said. "Your mom is so proud of you."
ReplyDeleteWelcome back, Lenny! :)
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful tribute to your mother. It's very helpful that you are sharing this with others. Think of all the good these shared memories can do for you & your readers. That's the best kind of writing!:)
I'm so sorry your mom died, Lenny. What a hard thing to experience. I'm glad you and your brothers and sister support one another.
ReplyDeleteI am also glad you reposted this because I didn't see it the first time.
*Hugs*
That was so beautiful, Lenny! Your mother must have been a wonderful lady because she raised an incredible son!
ReplyDeleteThis is such a beautiful message to your mother, Lenny. You made me cry with how honest and loving your words were. You're a wonderful writer.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs,
Jai
That was a wonderful letter, Lenny. Your mom did an amazing job with you and your family. (Not to mention, man, you can write!) *hugs*
ReplyDeleteOh Lenny! I don't know what to say ...
ReplyDeletebut I know you're mom is proud of you.
Thank you for sharing this wonderful tribute with us. Your mom sounds really special.
ReplyDeleteLenny, your mama is so lucky to have a son like you. I know she is super-dee-duper proud of you! You are such wonderful person, and I am honored to be your friend.
ReplyDeleteLenny, it sounds like your mom was very, very special. I truly do believe that when someone passes from this world, they are still around us, still watching over us. I know your mom must be so proud to have a great son like you!
ReplyDeleteAngela @ The Bookshelf Muse
This is such a touching letter and tribute to your mom. Thanks you so much for sharing this heartfelt, beautiful letter. You are clearly one awesome son and I know you mom must be smiling down on you, so very proud of her boy!! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for posting this, Lenny. It is so sweet! I know your mother is very proud of you! You are so special, and this post really touched my heart. All of us, young or old, whose mothers are in heaven can certainly relate to what you say.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you reposted this. Beautiful! Maybe shrinking isn't always a bad thing. :)
ReplyDeleteWow...thanks for stopping by my blog, Lenny--if for no other reason than to lead me back here so I could see this post. I have an in heaven mom, too. And what everyone just said, yours must be mighty proud
ReplyDeleteSuch a sweet letter, Lenny! I think she knows and appreciates your thoughts each year. We all echo her thoughts, I'm sure, when I say we're all proud of you and your brothers and sister. You stick together and that's hard to do as siblings. We could learn a lot from you all!
ReplyDeleteBig hugs, buddy!!!
Aww, this is so sweet! *hugs*
ReplyDeleteAny mum would be proud and probably cry to hear those words.
ReplyDeleteI found your two comments in the spam filter somehow and I post one (because they were the same). I hope no one has to read that Will you wrote any time soon.
take care, lenny
Thanks for reposting this, Lenny. It's beautiful. And even though it's unique to you and your mom, I think it's also kind of universal. A truth, if you will. I feel the same way about my mom, though my memories are different than yours.
ReplyDeleteLenny this is a truly beautiful post. Thank you for sharing this with us.
ReplyDeleteLenny, I came by to check on you and I saw this and now I'm crying! Well done, sir! You are a wonderful writer and I know your mum is so proud of you! LIke we all are!
ReplyDelete(You should have your book any time! It's on its way!)
XOXO - JKB
I've missed your blog, Lenny. I hope you put up a new post soon. Thinking of you. xo
ReplyDeleteHi Lenny,
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I haven't been around in a while...I've been sick. I got sick in April with chest cold and it triggered my asthma and I had to spend time at the hospital so they could get me breathing. Anywhoodles, my point is, I miss you and I haven't been online much for the last couple of months (due to the being sick stuff). But now that I'm feeling better I'm making my rounds and this is one of my first (and favorite) blogs to stop in and say hi.
I see you haven't been online much either. *hugs*
I love this post. Your letter to your mom is beautiful. And, as a mom, I can promise you she is VERY proud of YOU and your brothers and sister.
I hope you have a wonderful weekend, my sweet friend.
Hugs,
Lola
Dear Lenny, Your Mom can hear you and will know she is so very loved. My husband Beric just lost his Dad and it's never easy, even though he is much older than you, I'm sending this post on to him. Sending love and warm wishes from a not-very-warm South Africa.
ReplyDeleteJudy, South Africa
Hi Lenny .. lovely post and as Judy says your Mama can hear you .. all our souls are united and will remain so .. Inspirational you are to me .. and your family will be so proud of you .. have fun together this weekend .. with love Hilary
ReplyDeleteLenny!!! This is the sweetest letter I have ever, ever, ever read. The knot in my throat aches. Your mama is definitely smiling down at you, proud of all you accomplish every day. You are the best, Lenny!! (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteMums are so important - I love my mum, she is fabulous!!!
ReplyDeleteHey Lenny , your mum must be so happy up there looking at you :) The letter you have written is so sweet . :)I love my mom a lottt , she's important to me more than anything else in this whole universe.
ReplyDeleteMoms of the World
Are you familiar with the World Famous Moms?
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Hi Lenny!! Your mom's smiling done on you. I look forward to your sunshine.
ReplyDeleteHi Lenny! Hoping your summer is full of sunshine and fun.
ReplyDeletexoxo--
Shelley
Wow Lenny. So amazing. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteThis is wonderful Lenny. You are such a wonderful writer. So cool seeing all the Lenny sunshines on blogs today.
ReplyDeleteWhat a great tribute to your mother. Thank you, Lenny, for sharing it.
ReplyDeleteSuch a lovely and touching letter. Thank you for sharing it, Lenny. *hugs!*
ReplyDeleteWow, Lenny. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful post. May I shake the hand of a wonderful writer and a beautiful human being?
ReplyDeleteI think I'm in the presence of TRUE greatness.
Thanks for sharing this letter Lenny! You can bet your mom is proud of the talented and caring person you are, wherever she is!
ReplyDeleteLenny, this is such a beautiful tribute to your mother!
ReplyDeleteHi, Lenny I just found your post, and am so glad I did. My mom passed away nearly forty years ago, and I still miss her. I know she is in Heaven, with Jesus, though and is much happier than she could ever have been here on earth. All my brothers and sister are with her now, too, along with my husband and her husband, my dad. Isn't it wonderful that we can know where we will be when we die? God bless you, my dear. Your friend, Ruby
ReplyDeleteHey Lenny,
ReplyDeleteI'm missing you, lovebug.
Have a sunshiny weekend!
Huggleberries,
Lola
Hi Lenny .. wonderful to know you're enjoying reading and hearing about the posts .. no worries re replying - we just love you and send big hugs from all over the States and the rest of the world .. JUST ENJOY THEM ALL .. but WALLOW in mine!! Don't get your family mad singing the words ... gloooor-i-o-u-s mud!!
ReplyDeleteHave a very very happy weekend .. love xoxox Hilary
Happy belated blogaversary, Lenny. Came over from Matthew's blog who did a post just for you.
ReplyDeleteHow ya doin Lenny!
ReplyDeleteI just came over from Robyn's blog and I'm glad I did. Wow! what a wonderful letter to your mom.
I can only say the same as everybody else, I'm sure she's watching over you and I know she'll be very proud of you.
I hope you have a great weekend:)
Hi Lenny! I'd like to thank you for letting your sunshine spread the blogworld and for shining on mine :) Sending you hugs! from your bloggie friend Len Lambert
ReplyDeleteThanks for reposting this--I missed it the first time around. This is a lovely tribute to your mom--I know she's proud of you!
ReplyDeleteHi Lenny,
ReplyDeleteI just hopped over from Matt's blog. This is a fantastic tribute to your mother, and as many have said above, she is extremely proud of you. There is a lot of positive energy over here and I thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. I admire your courage for doing so, and I admire you. Have a great weekend; I'll be back often.
Best,
Paul
What a beautiful letter, Lenny. It's a blessing for you to have the ability to express your feelings in writing. It helps you, and it touches everyone who reads your words.
ReplyDeleteHi Lenny,
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful note. I bet your Mom is watching and smiling at what a wonderful person her son is.
Hi, Lenny. This letter is beautiful and touched my heart.
ReplyDeleteI'm hopping over from another blog. I'm glad I paid a visit.
this is very sweet, worth a repost.
ReplyDeleteI'm really impressed by this blog.
Nahno ∗ McLein ™
Well Mr. Lenny, the blogosphere has been telling me to visit your site over and over now, and I'm mighty glad I did. It's wonderful to meet you and to hear you share this letter. It makes me appreciate my own momma, who lives on the other side of the world (good thing for skype!)
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful. Sending you a hug and a big ol' serving of peace and happy for this beautiful June Sunday.
ReplyDeleteOh Lenny that is heartbreaking. What a grown up boy you are already. I'm sure your mum is really proud of you. Best wishes.
ReplyDeleteSending love and hugs your way Lenny!!! I do miss reading your entries and hope that the world of Lenny remains strong!
ReplyDeleteHi Lenny! When you feel up to it, stop by my blog to pick up two awards I've nominated you for. The first one is the Stylish Blogger Award. The second one is the Irresistibly Sweet Blog Award.
ReplyDeleteSending (((((HUGS))))) your way!
Sorry, but blogger is giving me problems in posting this comment under my name. : (
Susanne Drazic
PUTTING WORDS DOWN ON PAPER
http://susannedrazic.blogspot.com/
My mum died just over a month ago and this blog made me cry. It was so beautiful and it's exactly how I feel inside. Take care.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a good writer. I hope that there is an award for you out there. Your blog made me get tears in my eyes. It is very touching. I came to know about you through Sharon Mayhew's blog. I feel a conncetion with you although I am sixty years old , because I lost my Mom too(it will be ten years this year in August) and I am sure both our Moms know that we love them.
ReplyDeleteThis is Munir over at focus. Blogger is not allowing me to write as my self here. Like you, I like to keep this Earth beautiful and save it from getting harmed. I will stop by and read your other entries in time.
Lenny,
ReplyDeleteIt is an amazing letter that touches all of us in some facet. Our senses do reconnect our soul with those we love! It will continue on and writing down these memories is super important. YOU will have them for a life time and it will keep you and your Mom close, in heart and mind! Time will make it easier, but it doesn't heal wounds like adults say. It just makes facets of your special memories brighter, more beautiful. When the pain starts to fade a bit the gem like moments shine through. I am so sorry for you and your families loss. I lost my Dad when I was a kid and today I still have moments that seem like they happened yesterday. We keep our family alive in sharing these memories. She lives on in you and your siblings; your MOM would be proud of you! xXx