super doc!

i had to go to the doctor the other day. dont worry, im not sick or anything like that. im doing great! i was just doing what you call follow up stuff that i do every couple of months. mostly people dont like going to the doctor but i love it. yep i really do! thats cause shes a SUPER DOC!

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whats a super doc? im gonna tell you but watch out cause when i do youre gonna be sooooo jealous and wish she could be your doctor too. ok heres goes.

she makes me feel sooooo special just like im her only patient. i know shes got lots more and i bet she treats them special too but i just like feeling im the most special.

she spends lots and lots of time with me and is a really good listener. she doesnt just want to know about how im feeling in my body and in my mind but she wants to know about everything thats going on in my life and she likes hearing about it.

she writes down everything i need to remember and gives me the paper to take home so i wont forget what i need to do to take good care of myself.

she talks to all my family and other doctors and people who are helping so everyone knows what’s going on and can help together.

shes a big support for me and for all my family. shes always there if i need her.

she answers my emails but I dont send many cause i know shes real busy. sometimes she sends email pictures of her dogs and cat. she sent one of her cat getting a bath and it was soooo funny.

shes got a really nice smile and a neat sense of humor and a really cool laugh. she makes me feel soooo good when im with her.
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youd think thats enough but for me heres what makes her an even more extra special doctor.

she gives the biggest and best hugs and you know how much i love getting and giving hugs. if you dont just go look at my how bout a hug post. hugs feel soooo good and are real healing.

when she knows im coming to see her she brings her two dogs lefty and scout to the office for me to play with while im waiting cause she knows how much i love animals. theyre little lap dogs and make waiting soooooo much fun.

and best of all…she loves me!!!
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wow! shes a SUPER DOC for sure! now arent you jealous? told you so! ha ha!

… hugs from lenny

how 'bout a hug!

i don’t know ‘bout you but i love hugs. i love giving them and i love getting them. i bet you didnt know theres a national hug day and its on january 21st.

i got thinking about hugs and whats so neat about them. hugs are for lots of things. theyre for being happy, for when you’re sad or scared or sick, cause we like some one or love ‘em, to make some one just feel better, to say im sorry, to make up after a fight, to tell ‘em we care, to give comfort, to make em feel real safe and lots of other reasons. some times a hug isnt for any reason but just cause it feels like the right thing to do and it feels good in our heart.

i think theres different kinds of hugs. i like the bear hug cause its so close and squeezy tight and like for a minute were all one person together and for me thats a for real hug. theres a not for real hug and its one of those social thingys and it doesnt have much feeling and its not squeezy tight and its just for saying hello. theres group hugs and theyre neat for being close with a bunch of people.

whats in a hug that makes if feel so good? mostly i think it feels really good cause in the touch you could feel that some one really cares about you or loves you and they say it more strong in a hug than in just words. its really neat when you get hugged and get the words all at the same time. being wrapped up in some ones arms is a real feel good thing.

some times its real important to not just hug some one but ask if they could want a hug. thats like when i go with my brother to where he works with mental ill people. i always ask if one of them could want a hug and mostly every one says yes. i think thats cause they didnt get much hugs in their life and dont get any now. thats a real feel good hug for me and for them too! its ok to say no if you dont want a hug cause some times you just dont feel like it and some people dont like getting touched.

one of my brothers found this quote for me cause he knew im making this hugging post

“Hugging is healthy: It helps the body’s immune system, it keeps you healthier, it helps cure depression, it reduces stress, it induces sleep, it’s invigorating, it’s rejuvenating, it has no unpleasant side effects, and hugging is nothing less than a miracle drug.” - Unknown –

now if you want to you could leave me a nice big hug and go give some one a just because hug! ..... …..biggy supersized hugs from lenny

a letter to mom on mothers day

i miss you soooo much. when you died my heart got all crumbled and tied up in a tight ball and i couldn’t take in even a little breath of air. all my insides got filled up with sad and i made so much tears i could have got drown in them. but little by little the crumble got less cause of remembering all the good stuff about you. it was like the hurting got shrunk up just like that time i put that pretty red turtle neck sweater you knitted for me in the washer and dryer and it got shrunk up so small that it looked like it could fit a for real turtle. ha ha. now theres so much things that could make me think about you with happy thoughts just like last night when i opened the deck door to go and feed the critters and i got a big nose full of some really pretty smelling bushes. i dont know what that bush was but it got me thinking of you cause of how you loved flowers and had that really pretty flower garden. it gave me a smile and a really nice memory. that kind of stuff happens lots of times cause now i could let it and before i couldnt cause of so much hurt being in the way. i think youll be happy that the hurt got shrunk cause you couldnt want me to be so sad for the rest of my whole life. i talk to you lots and i know you could hear me and i hear you in my heart even if you cant say stuff back out loud. some day im gonna get to be with you and im real happy for that. but right now cause im just right here still on the earth im gonna keep on being just me and do all the good stuff you taught me how to do. oh and you could need to know i dont ever forget to brush my teeth at night and i always talk to god before i get off to sleep. you could be real proud of me and my brothers and my sister cause were taking real good care of each other just like you taught us and just like you could want us to do. i love you more than a zillion of your apple pies and that’s a real lot cause you know how much i loved those yummy pies. happy mothers day in heaven mom! …love and hugs from your son lenny

how to love you

i said back a little while ago that you need to love you first before you could love other people or animals or the earth. well i got thinking it’s a pretty hard thing do when you don’t know how to be your own best friend. now I need to say stuff on how you could love you when you don’t and you feel all empty inside and like your not much worth anything. then you’re telling mother earth youre not part of her and that makes you all by yourself in the world. so what could you do? first you need to want to love you and be happy and be like sunshine and not some lumpy grumpy black cloud. you need to say “yeah I want to be a real bright shiny star.” you could need to know its ok to not be perfect or try to be and its ok to just be who you are and feel just what you feel. you need to start doing more nice stuff for you every day that I call feel good stuff like saying good words about you to your self and doing fun things and some times doing stuff that’s just real not you and maybe a little crazy like wearing two different colour socks or an inside out or backwards tee shirt. it gets you smiling and feeling good and happy. you need to get rid of that junk pile you been carrying around and start tossing stuff out cause its hard to carry a big lot of junk around all the time. you need to practice this stuff every day til it gets way deep down inside you and pushes out that lumpy grumpy black cloud. then you will meet someone you could like and love. someone who's just brand new in your life – YOU! …..love from lenny

you gotta love you first

you can’t love any one or animals or the earth til you could love you first. you can’t spread out love til you could know your worth getting love and could love your self way down inside. i couldn’t love all the people i love and the animals and mother earth if i didn’t love me first. it starts deep down in my heart and feels like warm sunshine all inside and it makes me happy and makes me like me and love me. lots of people could think they love but they could turn it on an off cause its not for real and in doing that they could cause hurt. when you for real love your self then you could spread it out on everything just like peanut butter and jelly and you can’t never shut it down cause for real love can’t get shut off. so its really really good to love you first so you could love every thing else even the most smallest little thing. it could be lots of work in loving you but you gotta know your worth it and your worth getting love and giving it out. .....love from lenny